From the outside in...Things that I just wanted to express

Many things have been running thru my mind lately and has really been needing me to step back and truly analyze me, my many situation, and friendships. I feel like I am very level headed person who if pushed to far can get upset. I feel like I am one to help others if I can and show love and compassion to people even when I loose hope in all humanity. I am one who helps the underdog because I know how it feels to be the underdog. I think I can relate to many people because I can really put myself in their situation. But even thru all of this I am still imperfect and I am the hardest on myself than others on me. 

Saying this I have felt lately that I have been too kind to people (dont know if that is possible) especially those that I call my friends because some way or another I feel like people used this to take advantage of me. I am a giver and I am fixer. It makes me sad and upset that those around me feel that its ok to say and do whatever they want to me to make them feel better and when they finally want something in return they think still deserve the best of me. 

I know some of my so called friends talk badly behind my back. To be honest you are entitled to your own opinion of me. I just dont like the fake friendship. What really happens to me in this situation is that I become bitter and have hatred towards those people which is something that I try never to be. I try my best to be the most positive and happy person I can be even if things go wrong but like I said before Im imperfect. I have tendency to forgive but not forget and I do become distant emotionally and physically. I shut down and loose trust with those people. 

I feel that if you have put me down and use me so much and then drop me because you have gotten what you need from me and then want to be in my life again there is a lot that you would have to do. Sometimes I just dont deal and for the most part once im done with you, Im done. But then there are those exceptions and one of the main things that I would need is to gain trust in that person again.  I try to push thru my issues because in the reality its in cause of my issues that I become like this and life is too dang short. Too short to be using those that care. Too short to put each other down. Too short to think that there will always be a second chance because the reality is that in life there is no guaranteed that there will be a second chance. Nothing is guaranteed.  My life hasnt always been a good time. I have lost many friends to deaths and I have gone thru things have made me understand that LIFE IS TOO SHORT! 

I may not be something to look at but I am someone who is strong and hardworking and living life to the fullest and like Marilyn Monroe says: “I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.” 

Love those that love you and care for those that care for you. Live your life to the fullest and embrace those that are there for you through thick and thin because you will never know when your journey or theirs is over.

New Orleans Baby

So after three years of no blogging I thought that I would try to catch up on whats going on in my life since then... ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!!! Being that this answer really makes me sad and makes me feel like I am not living my life to the fullest like a single, 27 year old awesome women with really no responsibilities I made a New Years resolution. This New Years resolution is not the whole lose weight or hit the gym 5 days a week kind of resolution...I vowed that I would visit this world states side and different countries. So far I have fulled my resolution. I have visited New Orleans after Mardi Gras and of coarse Idaho (but I lived there so it dont count ;)) I went with my friend and her roommate. I stayed in the Hostel and to tell you the truth it was pretty awesome to do that definitely recommend it. Here are some of the pictures I took.

Shelly and I waiting to go into Preservation Hall for our Jazz Concert

Jazz Band in Preservation Hall

The highlight of my night found a bar named after my favorite movie Boondock Saints

Benyas and Coffe at Cafe Demonde

Swamp tour (people that live in the swamp)

Spanish Moss

Vegetation in the Swamp

Cajun Encounters

Taken the Trolley

Probably my favorite thing to do in New Orleans was to take the trolley everywhere you needed to go!

Preservation Hall

The wonderful world of Glee!!!!

So I just got into the show Glee its an amazing show! I LOVE IT! Its full of music and good acting! I love watching everyone on this show! They have beautiful voices and awesome dancing! Its a breath of fresh air and every time I see it, it put me in a good mood! It makes me happy to see it and makes me wish that I can sing as good as they can! Its such a great show!!! watch it! Love it!

MY SAN FRANCISCO TRIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This weekend while everyone else was here stuck in San Diego, I was hanging out in San Jose and San Francisco! San Francisco is the most amazing city that I have ever been too! I went there because it was my friends birthday and he wanted me to go out on the town with him and his girlfriend. It was an amazing time and I have decided that I want to move there! I want to live in a big city like that! The first day in the big city we went sight seeing. These locations I really saw the city! They call the long street the but crack of San Francisco. It was so overwhelming to see a big city like this. The next we saw was the San Francisco Bridge. That was a sight to see it was amazing to see that man actually made this bridge and how huge it really is. The next place we went was china town and Haight street. It was so rasta I didnt think that it was really that rasta but no joke it was a whole different world then at the end of my trip we went to pier 39 where there was a place where the seals hangout and we went to a restaurant called Bubbagump which they had the greatest seafood and we went around Alcatraz we were trying to get tickets to go on Alcatraz but the tickets were all sold out! This trip was amazing! I love it and I love being there if I do move there I will love living there!

Know Your Rights!!!!!!!!!

There is something going on in our neighborhoods that we maybe are aware and we may not be. There are illegal check points that are being held by by our local police. Police don't want to look for undocumented workers, they want to catch criminals. They want to catch rapist who violate women and young children. They want to catch murders. These checks point are in violation of Human Rights. Human rights that are rightfully given to us the day we are born. There is no such thing as race because our skin color does not make us different species. We all belong to one race and that the Human race. Knowing these truths is important for us know that we have rights that go beyond our nations rights. We have rights that being with our births. These rights cannot be taken away from unless we let them. Saying this I would like to educate all those who are afraid that you will be caught in these illegal check points. Know your rights and what you can do and what you should do:

You have the right to remain silent:

• If you are arrested, you have the right not to answer questions
• Do not lie. Only say your real name and: " I need to talk to my lawyer"

If you don't have papers:

• Do not tell the Officers your legal status.
• Don't lie.
• Do not turn in false documentation.
• Do not take another country documentation. If you do, the government can use this information for deportation.
• Do not run!Remain calm.

If you are arrested, you should:

• Know who arrested you.
• Do not sign any documentation without a lawyer present.
• Contact your lawyer or a family member.
• Contact your consulate.
• Request Bail

Know your rights!
If you are detained by immigration or the police:

• Hand the card to the official, and remain silent. (look below for the card)
  
• The card explains that you are exercising your right to refuse to answer any questions until you have consulted a lawyer.

This card should say:
To whom it may concern:
Please be informed that I am choosing to exercise my right to remain silent and the right to refuse to answer your questions. If I am detained, I request to contact an attorney immediately. I am also exercising my right to refuse to sign anything until I consult with my attorney.

For Spanish Speakers:

El derecho de guardar silencio:

• Si lo arrestan, tiene derecho a no contestar preguntas.
• No mienta. Solamente diga su nombre verdadero y: "Necesito hablar con mi abogado."

Si no tiene documentos:

• No revele a los agentes del Gobierno su situacion migratoria.
• No miente.
• No entregue documentos falsos.
• No lleve documentacion de otro pais. Si lo hace, el Gobierno puede utilizar esta informacion en un proceso de deportacion.
• No corra! Mantenga la calma y tranquilidad.

Si lo arrestan, debe:

• Averiguar quien lo arresto.
• No firme documentacion alguna sin hablar con un abogado.
• Comuniquese con su abogado o con un familiar.
• Comuniquese con su Consulado.
• Solicite fianza.

Conozca sus derechos!
Si es detenido por la policia o migra:
Pase la tarjeta al agente y guarde silencio. La tarjeta explica que usted quiere ejercer su derecho a no contestar preguntas sin consultar con un abogado.

La carta debe decir:
Estimados seniors:
Deseo ejercer me derecho a guardar silencio y no contestar preguntas. Si me detienen, solicito comunicarme de inmediato con un abogado. Quisiera ejercer, ademas, me derecho a no firmar nada sin consultar con me abogado.

Again know your rights and help your self out!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!

Happy Holidays....Happy Holidays To you!

This year, I am very sad to say that I dont really have the spirit of Christmas in my life. I dont know why but I dont. I am very gumpy! But I have decided that I need to remember that its not about me its about God. Its about loving your family, remembering how much God loves you, and about charity. The biggest act of love that has ever been shown to everyone in the world is the birth of Jesus Christ. He came on this earth to die for our sins. Knowing this important information how can one say god does not love you. So whatever you are doing today and tomorrow be safe and remember the true spirit of christmas. Love you all and God bless.
Merry Christmas and have a happy new year

Michelle

AVENTURA....SO NASTY!!!! :)

On Saturday December 12, 2009 I went to the Aventura Concert. Needless to say the performance was amazing!!!!!!! I really enjoyed the concert. Now I have been to many concerts as you may know but dang! that is the first time that I have ever been to one where the women threw their bra's at the performers. It was so funny to see that. I explained to my friend about how I have never seen that done in real life and she kindly turned to me and said "its because you have never been to a latin concert". Sad to say but its so true something about the latin concert that everything changes. These concerts seem to always be so dirty. If you are into bachata music and want a really romantic music playing or want something to listen to you that knows what your going thru then Aventura is the band for you. I will post pics soon!